My Soul Quest

2009-06-02T14:58:00.000+03:00

So I got my happy-ending that I dreamt about for so long. It all came full circle, and I thank Hashem every single day of my life for giving me my family.Yonatan and Danielle were born by elective caesar at 9.36 and 9.37 respectively on the morning of the 8th of January 2009. Yonatan weighed 2.2 kgs and Danielle a very scary 1.7 kgs. They both looked like two little plucked chickens, so

At last...I think my souls found me.

2008-07-21T12:06:00.004+03:00

I am 12 weeks pregnant, with TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I feel like I have composed this Blog forever, from even before I actually fell pregnant. I imagined this moment with such intense clarity, it was a dream; a sometimes very unreachable dream, to actually officially announce that my time had come. That all the hoping and wishing and praying had had some use. And now, that my story will

2008-06-12T15:51:00.001+03:00

I dream up Blogs every night, I just never get to write them all. I am not sure if it is IVF/Fertility treatments that does this to you, but each time, I tried something new, something different. All obviously in the hope that 'it' would work 'this time'. Praying at the Wailing Wall, getting special blessings from weird uber-religious Jews in Bnei Brak, googling more, learning more, praying

2008-05-27T14:09:00.001+03:00

My Donor sais that the South Africa that I love and fantasize about is not the same. He says I am living in a little dream world based on my life 'then', and not on the reality of 'now'. Reality now, is that a wave of Xenophobic mania has taken over the country, two weeks of national bloodshed, 56 foreigners dead and thousands displaced and yet more shame cast over a once hopeful nation.Our

2008-05-26T10:34:00.000+03:00

I irritated and embarrased my brother for about the first 25 years of my life. He was the golden-boy, and I was the rebellious hippy-child. We really had no relationship, I was on my planet, and he on his. No amount of head-banging, tying us together or locking us in the same room could have fixed it. We needed maturity to 'find' each other, and thankfully we did.This was a draft Blog from

coulda, woulda, shoulda

2008-05-26T10:05:00.004+03:00

It was 2am this morning and I couldn't sleep, again. The silence and solitude is all-consuming at that hour. Thoughts racing, and a thousand Blogs composing. The 'could haves', the 'would haves' and the 'should haves'. I need words. I use words, I talk, I express, I analyse, I emote. This self-imposed black-out is good on one hand as I don't obsess too much, but on the other, I need this

Reflections

2008-05-14T13:11:00.003+03:00

This time last Birthday I was licking some serious wounds. I was alone, I was miserable and I had just miscarried. I knew I would be fine. I am the grown-up. I worried more about the children, their trauma of experiencing first-hand, a South African-style armed robbery. Their loss of both their innocence and the only life they knew. Those 45 minutes on that Monday morning changed everything.

2008-05-13T11:27:00.001+03:00

This time last year I was not the happiest camper.

Happy `birthday to me.

2008-05-12T00:51:00.002+03:00

Its' my Birthday, it is officially the 12th of May!!!! It is 12.55 am and I have just got my Birthday present from the Donor. It felt only right to use my present to post this Blog. I got a APPLE MACBOOK !!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How cooooool is my Donor!!!!!!!This past week has flown past in a haze of hysteria. Israels' 60th Birthday was celebrated in usual loud and proud

2008-05-04T21:09:00.003+03:00

I wonder how different I am today than what I was 20 years ago. I still feel like a 15 year old, except I am going grey, have wrinkles (smile/character lines - whatever), have two children and have had the same partner (now husband) for 14 years. Recently a friend from all those years ago contacted me, which got me thinking. Would we still like each other if we met now 20 years on? What would

Spring Break

2008-05-02T02:02:00.005+03:00

The Donor is back, Pesach is but a memory and School Holidays are over.I went for my check-up with Profman, I walked in, all confident and shiny; and walked out totally deflated. I thought that with my new-found post-operative fertile self that there was going to be no looking back. I thought I had it all figured out, full-speed-ahead to my Frozen Five. My 'worst-case' scenario was going to be

2008-04-09T21:46:00.003+03:00

So Dr. Hand-Job (thanks Judy - http://averyopenbook.blogspot.com/- for the really good giggle)says that I am fit and fertile as a fiddle (if fiddles could be fertile). And, again, according to him I "will be pregnant within the next few months".The coolest part was seeing the photo's he took during the Lapscope. I got to see the very rotten 'before' pic of my left hand side, and then the 'after

2008-04-09T14:08:00.003+03:00

God told the Jews to "go forth and multipy". And they are. Winter was cold and now everyone is pregnant, there are bursting little tummies and big fat exploding tummies everywhere. It really is so beautiful. Not sure if it is Israeli's or Jews, but having children is like a national sport here. There is this great song from like 25 years ago by a famous Israeli singer that goes: "Yaladim ze

2008-04-03T21:27:00.002+03:00

Crap long and sick week. The chest infection/cough turned my week into a haze of coughing and spluttering sick Me-ness. Husbandless again. And for two more weeks. Sick of coughing and sick of feeling sick. Sick of being told that I should be grateful as I "have two beautiful, healthy children". Like I don't know that! Like I don't know that I am blessed beyond words to actually have two

2008-03-28T17:17:00.003+03:00

It's all over.The operation went ahead successfully on Thursday night. I have four neat little incisions on my stomach. As expected, my left hand side Fallopian Tube (with Hydrosalpinx) was completely removed, along with the lasering of the Endometriosis and Adhesions. It is now three days later. I was home the next day, I still am a bit uncomfortable, not really sore just like a pulling

Home

2008-03-26T21:04:00.004+02:00

We got back late last night. My Blog was not accessible from China. Apparently my ramblings are of a highly sensitive anti-China tone, and I have to be censored.I was ACHING to just smell and touch my children. Seven days too too long! About to totally crash right now, two facts I have to share.1. My cat (of non-existent mouse-catching fame) is pregnant. Theoretically, she is still a '

2008-03-16T13:55:00.003+02:00

This past week I got my first really ugly comment. I have not published the comment, I am still trying to figure out if I perhaps should. I wonder how easy it is to 'lash' out at someone 'anonymously', someone who is a complete stranger. My first reaction was of real shock, as it was so clear to me in my head what I had written, what my intentions had been. I knew what I meant. It upset me

Revised plans and new hopes.

2008-03-06T22:18:00.003+02:00

Another week gone.Death has an awful way of making you wake up a bit, and realising what you have. Being grateful and appreciative. Not 'sweating the small stuff'.After much internal debate I have decided to postpone my operation and to go with The Donor to China. It is a work-related trip for around 7 days and the children will stay with my in-laws - they are happy as that means unlimited

Death

2008-03-01T18:59:00.003+02:00

What a horrific week.I dealt with death, if that is possible, to actually 'deal' with death. I think it is more like 'feeling and breathing' death. A very close family friend died of a heart attack early last Shabbat morning. He was in South Africa with his youngest daughter, and his wife was in Israel with the two elder daughters. His body had to be flown to Israel, he was buried on Monday

Almost pregnant

2008-02-21T14:11:00.003+02:00

Just as I expected, it was all in vain. All the prayers, all the blessings, all the millions of injections, all the pills, all the pessaries, the anaesthetic, all the poking and prodding in my innards, all the loss of dignity, the praying and pleading at the Wailing Wall, all the stupid 'positive thinking' and all the hope. All in vain.Negative. Again.I really knew it, the urine sticks of the

2008-02-19T08:00:00.002+02:00

Crap night, couldn't sleep. Husband snored all night. Succumbed to doing a home pregnancy test at 3 am this morning. Bad move. It was as negative as negative could be. So preparing myself for either low or nonexistent Beta.And I have a stress-induced cold sore on my nose. Just wonderful. Ugly, un-pregnant, fat and red-nosed. And tired.I just don't get God at all.

Tiny ray of sunshine

2008-02-18T14:41:00.005+02:00

Got a tiny ray of sunshine today. A friend called this morning and told me that when she was pregnant with her twins, her day 12 Beta was in the 20's. Point being, that she then went on to have two beautiful and healthy twins. My day 13 Beta was 21, so there might just be something to get excited about here. I have to go for the next Beta on Thursday morning.

'slow' negative

2008-02-17T21:11:00.004+02:00

Two things.Firstly - I was blown away by the support from all the other 'infertiles' out there. I went into each commentors' Blog, and was humbled by everyone elses baggage, here I am with my issue and there are all these amazing strangers giving me this wonderful support and encouragement, while they are all having there own issues; heartbreaks and happinesses. How wonderful that we all share

This just gets weirder

2008-02-14T21:09:00.003+02:00

Todays' Beta Hcg was 21. We were hoping for a nice doubling to 30.So three possible scenarios:1. It is a tubal pregnancy. Will only be able to confirm under ultrasound at 6 weeks.2. It is not a viable pregnancy and will 'fall away' by itself.3. It is one tough little fighter, hanging on for dear life.I have to go for another Beta next Tursday. This will show if the levels are climbing

+/-

2008-02-13T19:55:00.003+02:00

I had no internet connection yesterday. So the results of my Beta were 14. In laymans' terms, it means that it was really low, it should have been around 80-ish. So I am neither positive, nor negative. This agony is just being drawn out. I have to go for another Beta tommorrow, hopefully it would have doubled to at least 30, if so, then that will be good news. If not, I just don't know.

.....?

2008-02-10T00:04:00.000+02:00

2wwd8p3dt (Day 8 post 3-day transfer)Three full days left till I have to do IT. Now I am just obsessing because I don't feel anything. Not an ounce of any nausea. I lay on my bed on my stomach last night misinterpreting a bit of indigestion for nausea, but that has been it. Nothing else. My 'love, hope, courage' ring is permanently pointing itself to 'courage'. Why? Will I be needing '

Good news

2008-02-07T07:19:00.000+02:00

Still in my 2ww (two week wait)d6pd3t (Day 6 post day three transfer)I got the letter from the Hospital today saying that FOUR embryos were frozen from my last cycle. I am over the moon. This is really really good news.So, all in all we have 5 frozen possible babies. 1 from my first IVF in Israel, Sept 2007, and now FOUR more.Brilliant news.

Tribute to Sheldon Cohen by Steven Bacher

2008-02-06T08:27:00.000+02:00

I just can't get these horrors out my head, this story haunts me. I think about his family sitting Shiva, about his wife and two sons. About his parents. I went to a wedding a few years back and was introduced to Sheldon's wife Leslie, the introducee used to work for Sheldon and knew the family very well. She told me something about him which sticks with me to this day, that once a week, he

Jihadi's and sombre thoughts

2008-02-05T00:18:00.000+02:00

I was a bit apprehensive about coming to stay at my in-laws, I am the kind of person who really likes my space, but I think I might just be getting used to this life of pampering. I almost feel like I am on holiday a bit. No dishes, no cooking, no cleaning, no washing, no folding, no floors, no bathing and no feeding. The hardest part of my day is deciding what I will eat next. This is

Horror...................and sandwhiches

2008-02-04T08:56:00.000+02:00

In todays newspaper (Ha'aretz) was the most horrific story. An eighteen month old baby boy died in a Tirat Carmel hospital from an overdose of the heroin-replacement drug Methadone. The 27 year old mother along with her drug addict boyfriend are suspected. The police believe the boyfriend administered the drug to the baby with the mother's assistance................The extra line-spaces are

Chana, Samuels' mother

2008-02-03T06:17:00.000+02:00

I emailed a Rabbi here in Israel for help with finding the appropriate prayer for fertility. He told me to read up about Chana's Prayer, she was the mother of the Prophet Samuel. She was infertile for years, she prayed to G-d and after giving birth to the Samuel, she went on to have four more children. Here is her story:When speaking of Shmuel, we cannot ignore his righteous mother Chana. The

Leaks etc.

2008-02-02T06:21:00.000+02:00

There are some things of my 'condition' that I don't talk about too openly. I know who reads this Blog. But I guess I better just come out with it already. I leak. That's right, leak, it is from the Hydrosalpinx. And this is the main reason why it has to be removed and why the IVF success rate is so low with this diagnosis. The 'leaking' flushes out the embryo's before they can implant. So

God and choices

2008-02-01T11:51:00.000+02:00

They are in, 3 in total, 2 x 6 cell, and 1 x 8 cell, good quality embryos. The indignity of all this 'infertility' stuff came crashing down on me today, I lay on the table, legs spread and stirruped (?), speculum in, two strangers staring up my vagina, swabbed, disinfected, a tear rolling down the side of my turned-away face. This is not a fun game. But this is my game of choice, I am choosing

ET

2008-01-31T09:05:00.000+02:00

The Embryo Transfer is scheduled for tommorrow morning, 8am, probrably 3 if they are of good enough quality. I will be all that wiser tommorrow. I spent most of today in bed again, very luxurious, but very crampy and throbby (is there such a word?). The crap part about my throbs is that I know that it is this Hydro-bloody-salpinx, the more it throbs the more I know that it is has to come out,

Another 7 little possibilities

2008-01-30T17:39:00.000+02:00

Just made the call, 7 fertilised, the Laboratory has already been advised of the Assisted Hatching, I have to call tommorrow evening to find out what time on Friday I have to be back at the Hospital for the Transfer.Are these my Souls maybe?

Snow, bed-rest and AH

2008-01-30T10:30:00.000+02:00

It is snowing in Jerusalem, and it is hailing here on Moshav Bnei Atorot - unfortunately no chance of snow here.I am on self-imposed bed-rest, my discharge paper from yesterday said "3 days rest at home". I might even read a book, that would be fun, I haven't done that in ages. This hard Israeli life has taken its' toll on me and I am going to enjoy this time. I have arranged a lady to pick up

Duds and green-gowns

2008-01-29T20:27:00.000+02:00

I have just got back after my Egg Retrieval, what a long long day, it is 8.30 pm. We left home at 2.15, head-first into the cold Israeli-wintery rain, hail and gale-force winds. On our way there the Donor told me the latest horror story from South Africa, the son of one of his business aquaintances had been murdered whilst picking up his son from a sports feild in Johannesburg last night. I still

Egg Retrieval

2008-01-28T22:15:00.000+02:00

My Egg Retrieval is scheduled for tommorrow, 2.45. Because it is done under full anaesthetic I cannot eat from 9am, so I am going for a big yummy breakfast-for-one somewhere early in the morning.

'Blessed' and 'Wailing Wall-ed' me.

2008-01-28T14:02:00.000+02:00

I took the trigger this morning, 2 x Ovitrelle, the egg retrieval is going to be tommorrow evening, looking forward to the anaesthetic. I made a deal with the anaethetist last time that he injects the yummy gooey anaesthetic stuff really slowly. I might as well enjoy something! Ofcourse there is always that little fearful voice wondering if I will wake up this time. Trying not to think about that

So...next step

2008-01-23T22:34:00.000+02:00

Day 7 -Menogon x 5 AmpsCetrotide x 1I went for the E2 (Estradiol) and Estrogen Bloods yesterday morning and went for the Follicular Ultrasound with Profman last night. Good news, there are a whole lot of little follicles, and growing nicely. I have to carry on with the Menogon until Thursday night, plus add in one more injection, Cetrotide (which prevents early ovulation), then for more E2 and

2008-01-21T00:46:00.000+02:00

Day 4 - Menogon x 5 ampsI am all swollen and throbbing and follicled! The meds are working I can feel it, what a great feeling, we are on the right track!The injections have been totally fine, such a minor thing in the grander scale of things, currently I am disciplining children, taking calls and making supper, all whilst injecting. I ROCK!The Donor is getting itchy feet and just wants to

Lift-off

2008-01-17T22:24:00.000+02:00

IVF#4Day 1 - 5 amps MenogonI got the go-ahead from Profman to start injecting. I was glad to see that I haven't lost my touch, 5 amps Menogon - Boom Boom Boom!!! So I have to do the this for 5 days, up to and including Monday, then Tuesday morning - a follicular Ultrasound, and E2 and Progesterone Bloods, then send off the results, and await my next step.I am happy and I am hopefull. Here we go

2008-01-17T09:40:00.000+02:00

In the life of an IVF repeat offender "trying again", ie starting yet another cycle, means new beginnings, new hope, another chance at getting it right. It is ironic in this IVF life of extremes, that you find yourself either wishing and hoping with every fibre of your being that you do NOT get your period, or, waiting for an ever-elusive period to arrive so you can start your next IVF cycle. So

Here and Now

2008-01-15T22:41:00.000+02:00

Still waiting for the elusive period. Come on already!A thought in response to a comment from today that maybe G-d is actually saying 'No':Well, I won't know unless I try and do everything possible in my limited human power to try and make 'it' work. This whole experience can't have been for nothing, there HAS to be a happy pregnancy-ending to my story. I can't just give up.My heart is with my

Conversations with myself

2008-01-14T23:45:00.000+02:00

So first things first, as I knew would happen, I was invited (formally) to one of the recipients of the warm yummy challa's. I was really very nervous that a newborn was going to be thrust into my very unwilling arms and I would have to make all of the necessary noises. I really didn't think I was either strong enough or prepared enough for this emotionally. Fortunately I did not have to find

Post challa downer

2008-01-13T00:21:00.000+02:00

So warm yummy sweet challa's delivered I am now faced with a new dilemma. I now have to go back sometime and visit properly and actually see these newborn babies. I was able to beg my way out of it yesterday when said warm challa's were delivered, but I left each house knowing that I now have opened a whole new can of worms. Obviously I will put 'it' off as long as possible, but at some stage

Babies, needles and Challa's

2008-01-09T13:38:00.001+02:00

My neighbour had twins two days ago, a mother in Noams class also just had twins. Between Adam and Noam's two classes there are numerous women in various stages of Pregnancy, some teenyweeny bump, and some ready to explode. Babies babies babies! Clearly I know what they were all doing in the excrutiatingly hot Israeli Summer months, their air conditioners must have been set TOO low.My neighbour

What happened to all my plans?

2008-01-07T23:06:00.000+02:00

Been in a sad place lately thinking of the 'what ifs' and the 'what could have beens'. and 'what will be's'. Secondary Infertility is a really lonely place with few understanding allies. Hearing about yet another pregnant friend, just crushes me, the injustice of it all! Me, who was made to have the Brady Bunch, me who at my 6-week check-up after my first child was born was only eager to know

very 'iffy'.

2008-01-04T00:30:00.000+02:00

00.30, feeling very iffy. 10 days or so more to go with the 'pill', then period, then back to my trusty friend the needle and IVF#4. Tired, sick of cleaning, sick of folding washing, sick of house-bloody-work! Feeling unpretty and sexless, hoping it is all just the hormones.

IVF#4: Countdown begins.....again

2007-12-29T19:01:00.000+02:00

I cannot beleive that another week is over, I barely have had time to breathe. Long word thing over and done with, (results to follow), long-distance Christmas, new car, sick children, 2 Shabbats, and now an impending New Years Party at my house.Ok, so results first, eventually the Hysterosalpingograph thing was done this past Sunday night. I was so excited about the Valium, naive me thought I

Rose-tinted glasses

2007-12-20T15:09:00.000+02:00

We went to friends for dinner last night with the children, and right outside their front door our car was broken into. The drivers' window was completely shattered by a rock, 'they' had also tried smashing the front windscreen and cracked it enough to have to be replaced. What a mission, and all for a GPS. I have friends back in SA who have this really romantic utopian idea about Israel,

Hyster...................................graph

2007-12-17T19:58:00.000+02:00

Had my follow-up appointment today with my Professor. We were with him for almost an hour, such a complicated case I am! After much backwards and forwards the final decision is that I am going to do a hysterosalpingograph (yes there is such a word)."Hysterosalpingograph - x-ray with dye injected into the uterus to see if the tubes are obstructed."This procedure is really simple and only sightly

Not my souls

2007-12-13T20:53:00.000+02:00

It was negative.Beta HCG <2, hard to misinterpret.So Plan B, already made an appointment with Professor Shulman, Monday 12.30, and on to sorting out surgically everything that is hindering any chance that I may have of every falling pregnant again.I was surprisingly fine, I had a tear, Noam was with me (albeit snoring next to me), and then I phoned to make the appointment with the Professor. Then

Until the result

2007-12-13T10:18:00.000+02:00

Day 54D-DAYOk, so I have managed to pull myself together. Life goes on. Mothers leave, and daughters have to just get on with it! Be strong Israeli-girl!Cleaning is my therapy, weird I know. My house is sparkling and spotless, this, the result of two teary eyed days of intense cleaning therapy. Yesterday I took my theraputed-self off for a bit of spoiling. I found a new hairdresser and went

Alone

2007-12-10T22:37:00.000+02:00

Day 50-whateverProgesteroneFeeling very sorry for myself, been crying on and off since I said goodbye to my Mom last night. I just feel all alone again.Me against 'them'.

"Everything happens for the right reason"

2007-12-05T22:20:00.000+02:00

When I went through the long and tedious, but really wonderful task of converting to Orthodox Judaism my teacher (one of the most special people I have ever met) throughout my conversion process always used to tell me: "Everything happens for the right reason". I have totally come to know this, but today was proof of that.So, I have been having the best time ever with my Mom, doing a load of

3 buns-in-the-oven

2007-12-02T21:26:00.000+02:00

They are in, safe and sound!!Profman said that out of the five, three were of a better quality (2 being 8 cells, and one being too many to count). Regarding the two remainders, we will only know tommorrow if they are of 'freezing quality'. I have decided that I am not going to focus on the frozen ones, only on the ones that are acctually in, and hopefully implanting themselves as I write. I am

5 Little Possibilites

2007-12-01T22:54:00.000+02:00

Day 43Crinone (Progesterone) x 1So they lasted the weekend! Well done little five embryo's! Keep growing, keep getting stronger, and then implant, implant, implant!I have spent the last two days obsessing over their status. They may not be even visible to the naked eye, but to me they are my 5 little babies - so the thought of knowing that even one 'did not make it' is really hard.My friend who

Possible lift-off

2007-11-29T21:44:00.000+02:00

Day 41Crinone (Progesterone)Ok, so we may have lift-off!The week so far, most importantly my Mother arrived in Israel on Sunday morning to spend two weeks with us. So exciting! I went with the children to the airport early Sunday morning to get her, what fun. We have had an absolutely wonderful week, 5 days so far, and the clock is ticking, just not enough time. We have travelled a bit,

Don't know what to think

2007-11-24T22:58:00.000+02:00

Decapeptyl Injection day 35Menogon Injection day 6I still dont think it is working. No pain, no discomfort at all. I should be really bloated and uncomfortable by now, it is day 6. My translation is NO FOLLICLES. My fears, that the Professor aborts the whole cycle.I will find out on Monday as that is another scan and blood day. I can't beleive that I have been doing this every single day for

Human Menopausal Gonadotropins

2007-11-21T16:19:00.000+02:00

Decapeptyl Injection- Day 32Menogon Injection x 4 amps - Day 3Maybe I am about to learn a hard lesson "You can't always get what you want" (thanks Rolling Stones).I think maybe, just maybe my body is not quite exactly where it should be, something is wrong as I am not responding to the medication as I should be. The first two IVF's 'it' did all the right things, all according to 'plan', except

Multi-tasking

2007-11-18T20:42:00.000+02:00

Decapeptyl Injection Day 29Gonal-F Injection Day 6I can't believe I haven't written for 12 days. So much has happened. Where to start?Ok firstly, husband arrived and then left again, it was touch-and-go for a second, as we thought we may have to freeze the 'donation', but he is back tomorrow evening from a quick China trip. The 'donation' will then be done safely and securely here in Israel, I

On and on and on....

2007-11-07T13:58:00.000+02:00

Decapeptyl injection - Day 18So no major news flash, I wasn't pregnant. I was so sure I wasn't, but when I went on-line to get my results I still stopped breathing for a split second hoping and praying with everything in me that by some miracle I was. Over the past two-and-a-bit years I have lost count of how many urine dip-stick pregnancy tests/blood tests I have done. I used to buy the

Watching my flowers grow

2007-11-04T15:03:00.000+02:00

I wrote a whole long Blog, mostly dedicated to the return of my snoring husband and my lack of sleep. I re-read it and it sounded very anti-husband, so I am rewriting this Blog.I love my husband dearly but I cannot sleep in the same room/bed/hemisphere with him. I have a, some may call strange, little ritual that I follow before actually switching off the lights at night. I need absolute quiet

Confused

2007-10-31T19:42:00.000+02:00

Madness, the last two days. Plain madness. The shortened version (which is not easy for me) is we have a cat. And, I think we still have a mouse. Post last Blog, my Gardener came and I explained my whole sad mouse story to him. In Israel you cannot buy poison in a hardware store, it is illegal. The only people who can buy it are people who have special permits, ie my Gardener. So, he said he

In Control

2007-10-29T11:37:00.000+02:00

So before I blinked the weekend was over. They call it the 'weekend', but it so isn't. The first day of the week is Sunday here, as in the bible, :....and on the first day G-d created.....", G-d worked on the first day of the week and so therefore, so will the Chosen People of Israel. Some people don't work on Fridays', but there is still school, so there is still the schlepping to and from,

Another day

2007-10-26T13:58:00.000+02:00

Ok, so this ain't dorky little Mickey Mouse, this is Mighty Mouse! Woke up, sent obedient Adam and Noam to check all the traps, I wrote yesterday how I was giving him the choice of sticky-gooey-gruesome death and the cage trap which would then have him released back into the wild. Well, all the traps were found as they were left, empty. Bar, exactly one. Kitchen cupboard, rhs sink. He went

It's a good life.

2007-10-25T14:08:00.000+02:00

Another day another injection. It is still taking a while of psyching up, to actually do it, but compared to the first day and almost a half hour of heavy breathing, position/room changing, I am really quite impressed with my progress. Today I think it took around 5 minutes all in all. Stabbing motion sorted, still not feeling a thing, thanks to Emla, the most unpleasant part being the burning

Post-Pipelle

2007-10-24T10:57:00.000+02:00

Ok that was really NOT fun!I should have taken more note of the secretarys' silence If it was possible to lather ones endometrial lining with Emla, I would have lathered away.So I got to the Prof-mans' rooms on time, and ofcourse still had to wait, nevermind, this is Israel and the first word any new immigrant learns here is 'Savlanoot' meaning patience. So there I sat all patient and new

Happy first Blog-day!

2007-10-23T18:16:00.000+02:00

Happy first Blog-day! Where to begin?So today in the life of me is 23 October 2007. A very special friend told me the other day that 'the right soul is looking for you', what a way to put it! And ofcourse I am doing everything within my power to help that/those specific souls find ME. I, thankfully, already have two souls. I have two beautiful children, Adam and Noam, both conceived naturally